dear mom,
i think i understand why you always chose to hide away. why you often times so easily could push someone away even if you loved the more then life itself. at some point you have to protect yourself.
ive been pushing poeple away alot lately. i cant take anymore hurt.
im learning more and more how easy it is for poeple to push me away. friends i thought cared for me as much as i cared for them, lose contact and/or forget about me.
just found out someone ive been thru so much with, shared so many things with, had a baby. i didnt even know she was pregnat. im heart broken. ive been thinking for a long time her lack of contact was just being busy. Deep down Ive known for a while that her only contact with me was just out of being polite. she has been planning on dumping me for a while now. I am not the same religion as her. her religion does not allow her to talk to those outside of it. What did I expect?
heart broke.
heart sick.
welcome to the new chapter. i can continue to lock poeple out and protect myself from feeling this way ever again or i can let new poeple in and pray that they treat me with teh same respect and love i treat them with. does that happen? does it? does it? someone give me answers...someone...
i think i understand why you always chose to hide away. why you often times so easily could push someone away even if you loved the more then life itself. at some point you have to protect yourself.
ive been pushing poeple away alot lately. i cant take anymore hurt.
im learning more and more how easy it is for poeple to push me away. friends i thought cared for me as much as i cared for them, lose contact and/or forget about me.
just found out someone ive been thru so much with, shared so many things with, had a baby. i didnt even know she was pregnat. im heart broken. ive been thinking for a long time her lack of contact was just being busy. Deep down Ive known for a while that her only contact with me was just out of being polite. she has been planning on dumping me for a while now. I am not the same religion as her. her religion does not allow her to talk to those outside of it. What did I expect?
heart broke.
heart sick.
welcome to the new chapter. i can continue to lock poeple out and protect myself from feeling this way ever again or i can let new poeple in and pray that they treat me with teh same respect and love i treat them with. does that happen? does it? does it? someone give me answers...someone...
